“Resolution” used to be a very intimidating word to me. With my in-born capacity to see 14 sides to any one question, the thought of making one choice and resolving to follow only that one path would send me into a tailspin of doubts and second-guessing.
Add to that the ethical implications of making a resolution, a decisive contract with myself that I might very well renege or give up on… Life could be a struggle in the fourth grade!
And as I grew I was faced with this anxiety every winter while listening to so many people around me listing off their multi-resolutions and goals for the New Year - focused, purposeful, resolved!!
But I've learned to be much kinder to myself as the New Year rolls around. I started to ponder the many meanings of “resolve.” The first definition in my dictionary (an actual printed book that I still treasure!) was, “to break up into separate, constituent elements or parts; analyze. To change or transform.” * Resolve was used in chemistry, physics, music and medicine to indicate change. Change!! Transformation!!!!
Now that I could allow myself to do! And it was no longer needful for me to come up with a list of things every year that I had to promise to work on, release, do or be. This was a resolution that could be remembered, allowed and applied every day.
Change for the better, change for the fun of it. Change my hairstyle, analyze my opinions. Resolve the unfinished business, resolve the ongoing argument. Change the habitual neighborhood walk to a ramble in the forest… Allow myself to change and grow and transform, even if it’s just small things, for my highest good!
Therefore, my resolution for 2016 is the same as 2015, 2014, 2013… But I’ve allowed myself to change and grow and transform in some way, every day, of all those years, so I come fresh and curious to every new year. It's exceedingly easy to keep my contract with myself, it's a way of life, a joy!! I renew it monthly, daily, hourly, not just once a year. Perhaps it's the one thing I'll neverchange!
Blessings on our New Year! May we be present to the infinite opportunities for growth and change that the Universe continually offers us.
In Beauty We Transform!!!
* Webster’s New World Dictionary - Third College Edition