I critically regarded myself in the front hall mirror - being three-quarter length it was the only mirror downstairs in which I could see myself without dragging up a step-stool. I moved forward and back, turned my head from side to side, all the while keeping my gaze locked on mirror-me. Smooth brown China-girl bangs, curly-curls around my ears and back of head, black eyepatch sealing off the left eye, elastic band at a jaunty tilt to keep it in place.
A regular check-up with my childhood GP had revealed that I had “lazy eye.” My right eye’s sight was sharp and clear but more and more taking over the work of the left eye. I thought what I saw from my left eye had become quite interesting. I enjoyed my vague fuzzy view of the world, seeing only lovely colors and intriguing shapes, often dawdling along in a one-eye-closed rosy glow.
Dr. Cloyes fitted the patch to my five-year-old eye socket with the instruction to leave it on all day, thus forcing my lazy left eye to start picking up the visual slack. Leaving her office, I was aware of everyone else in the waiting room staring at me. My mother squeezed my hand and whispered to ignore the stares, I looked just fine.
Now, at the hall mirror, ostensibly doing the exercises that would stimulate my lazy eye, I could really only focus on one thing. I looked cool. Yup, this eyepatch was a definite asset!
Next day, at kindergarten recess, I proudly announced that I had Amblyopia. A vocabulary geek even then, I had repeated the word my doctor used till it easily rolled off my tongue - so much more impressive than “lazy eye.” I also announced that my very special patch would cure this dread disease and soon I would be seeing further and clearer than anyone else on the playground. Before the week was out, my friends were offering me pennies or cookies for an opportunity to wear the magic coveted patch for a minute or so.
I think that amblyopia experience was an early training for me. As a Medicine Woman, Shaman Woman, I had to learn to keep “a foot in both worlds” while I worked with people. I learned to transfer my sharp focus on a client’s story and problems into a broad, expansive focus of past lives and energy patterns that held healing potential for them.
And being Star Many’s human partner requires all of that plus a pride and confidence in being a voice, a channel, for bringing into the world’s focus a new stream of practical magic - an asset that helps us to see further and more clearly than we ever thought possible.